Aks o Wajood... Sab ishq

Sweet Pain...

I traveled all my life searching different aspects I craved. Moved from one place to another.Each destination became a mere milestone on a journey that never ended.  Now when I had experienced the parts and camped  I find the whole. Ah sweet pain! I had the courage to walk even more, the dipping sun and the dark forest made me stop. Soon the clouds set it and roared like beasts and lashed the earth with their watery whip I felt content that I had found a place to camp. But then the rain stopped the clouds went away the moon came out in all its glory and I saw the trail where the ultimate destination was but I had hinged my camp so tightly I couldn't move my feet got stuck in the mud. The more I tried the more the quicksand swallowed me. I have made peace with it I have stopped struggling. Now I am there but my eyes are fixed on that ultimate destination.
     I can't get there but at least by being in peace I can see it till either my eyes see no more and my senses feel no more or till the time I'm pulled out and allowed to walk that path. Ah wrote all this not by wanting to write but it just all flowed out like an unstoppable train of thoughts

AKS...

"AKS"... merely three letters to you? read again it is one word but it expresses everything for me! In Urdu "AKS" means shadow or projection. When you walk on a lonely forest path and happen to cross a clear pond what do you see? you see projection of all that is around. Projection of every tree, every leaf  and everything. All that you see in that pond doesn't physically exist there, it never will but you see a projection an image. Have you looked closely enough around you do you see everything has a projection a "AKS" that is there where the physical existence of that object ceases to be. Every human soul would also have a projection? wouldn't it yet it does not know because where the projection exists there the actual existence is not. Yet we search and we wander and we search more and we take every path sometimes we are the projection searching for the real object and sometimes we are the object searching for its projection, either way there is a search and a journey of untold paths. Reading this you may think i have lost my head... NO i have found my projection i have found my "AKS". Finding it brings a joy but not being able to find it when it was there with me all along brings a regret that my existence my soul will have to live with. You went out there searching for something and never knew it was searching for you, your paths crossed for that brief moment when the object and existence were side by side, yet they never knew neither one stepped forward to embrace the other when the distance was but a mere moment. Today me and my AKS are again united yet the distance visually does not exist but it is a journey of eternity that stands between the two!

My Journey...has it ended or just begun

I write this for no one yet i write it for everyone but wait no i write it for myself. I was just a lost rock wondering through the universe on a path thought to be my destiny i thought i had marked out the course i was gonna take until a planet crossed my path it was a brief encounter but its gravitation forever left an impact. I was dragged through harsh galaxies burnt, carved and scarred, one impact to another changed my path changed my course, before i grew fond of the scene around me it was changed. My soul my core longed for that attraction that pull that will give me that one path i was meant to orbit and just when i couldn't see that planet across the horizon and had thought i had lost forever light years and light years away... i started to orbit a course until i was hit head on... my course forever lost!  Now i can see that planet,long to be in its orbit but it cant be done the unseen forces of time and space in a war against me yet again!
 When you are blessed with so much love and attention from all directions you sometimes lose track of the strongest beacon, you become selfish but you did not become selfish it was I the small meaningless rock with a soul with an ego that missed the chance to orbit, you were the caring planet forever wanting to give refuge to this shattered star. I just couldn't see, this journey will end one day my ego my existance will be consumed by nothingness but my soul will wander... it will wander in its search, it has been cursed to bear the pain to carry the scars and to wander, endlessly wander.
 I write  this for you, i write this for me, i write this for what could have been and for what is! And when i have to wander no more i will be there. This world, this life, this journey will one day end and may be then i will return to orbit around you where i always should have been!

The war has begun...

My fellow country men, the time for the test of all Pakistanis has arrived. In the bright sunlight of the day the enemy has attacked us on all fronts and all our major towns and cities are under threat. Our brave forces have been dispatched on all fronts to counter this menace. Step forward and fight side by side with your armed forces please! we will not rest until the evil has been eradicated !  Its a battle for survival
 i have made a few changes to what was said many many years ago and on purpose, though that was quite a speech still sends a wave of energy when you listen to that. Back then the enemy was clearly defined, visible and external. People trusted the armed forces  and the two stood together side by side, fought together and that resulted in a power packed punch that knocked out the enemy. But that was once upon a time, a time long long ago. Now the enemy... well frankly whose the enemy? media has its view, the army has its views, every political party has its view and oh yes we the people have a view but well that doesn't matter as we have given up the power of thinking and decision making is the domain of few people to whom we have surrendered our logic!

 The army and people that once stood shoulder to shoulder are in a relationship that is commonly described on facebook as its complicated. Every province blames the other and with the creation of new provinces on the horizon we may have more fingers to point and multiple new directions to point them in. Right now it seems that with fear stopping us from rising up against oppression, no unity, lack of a common goal, corruption and our silence we are our own worst enemies. This war isn't gonna be fought in the battlefields and you don't need conventional weapons to win. The battle is within each one of us fighting against our own silence, hypocrisy, fear and simple lack of faith, But i don't have to tell you that you know it, i'm just reminding you that the war has begun, we all are soldiers and we all our at stake. The time to act is now, it is fight for survival. A short and swift victory is not possible its gonna be a hard toil but once you are done with that this time you will truly rejoice in the spoils of victory!!